02/12/22:

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 Surf House Chicama

    Well, I just figured out why I'm sick. I have food poisoning from the lettuce in the burger. Just from the bottom, and general weakness, but I have sprite, water, and Gatorade. I got Chips Ahoy too, as close to crackers as I could find in this little town. I've exhausted half my Pepto supply, and I think the diarrhea is slowing down. My stomach is still angry.

    So I'm relaxing now. I went to the beach for a few hours, came back, and the wild rumpus started. I managed to get the provisions, came back, pooped, slept, pooped, drank Sprite, pooped, ate another Pepto, slept. Rinse and repeat.

    I watched Enola Holmes in the middle of all of this-- I love that movie-- and, while moving is still a discomfort, via either the food poisoning or the surfing, all else seems to be well. I'm watching my sick movies: romcoms and old DCOMs. 

    Gotta go.


    Have a fat picture of the breakfast I ate daily. Well, when I had food poisoning, I tried. The bread and fruit helped.

I love beach leg pictures for no reason


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